Writing for me has always been an outlet for my turbulent emotions. Even when someone makes me really angry, I’ll probably not lash out at them but I’ll write about it and transfer all my feelings on paper. However, this has also meant that most of my writing is really dark and depressing. Every time… Continue reading When the darkness seems endless…
Life can be so much pressure sometimes. People always need something from you: visit this person, send this person money, try make friends with this person, be happier around certain people even though you don’t feel like it. Sometimes, all I want to do, and it may seem basic but it’s so hard is just… Continue reading Balancing mental health and life pressures
My mind is a dangerous place. Everyone who is close to me will tell you that I am a chronic overthinker. For years, I have taught myself that this is just a part of me, that I have to accept it, live with it, that I cannot change, I cannot get out of my head.… Continue reading Sinking so deep
Sometimes I close my eyes and wonder, Why can’t I feel happy? Why can’t I feel free? Why do I feel as if the walls are closing in on me? Why don’t I feel normal? Why do I feel like no one gets it? Today is one of my hopeless days. I felt it from… Continue reading Sinking
Have you ever been so sad for so long that you don’t know how to be happy anymore? The last 2 months have been super crazy, I’ve been through a heart break, I had to move out to a new place abruptly and adjust to it, lockdown, working from home…it’s all been a bit much… Continue reading Guilty for being happy
The sadness has been building up again. This time, I thought it was the hormonal mood swings that would pass after a few days, but I was wrong. The worst thing is I am supposed to be happy, I have no reason to be sad, but I feel like I can’t help it. I feel… Continue reading I’m not okay…again
For one week now, my mind has been trapped in this dark hole, the same one I try to avoid every single day, but this time, I have lost the battle. I just want to be alone, I don’t want anyone else to feel remotely close to what am feeling right now. Why does my… Continue reading Trapped
There was a time where all I wanted was a break from life. For even just two days, I wanted to live stress free, nothing heavy on my mind, no worries, I just wanted to be in a bubble of joy for some time. And I actually got this. Since my last post where I… Continue reading Losing myself … again
I wish I could end it. Am so tired I don’t want to suffer anymore I wish there was a door I could walk through and it would all be over I wish it was that simple I don’t know if I have the strength to go on It’s all too much for me to… Continue reading Breaking point
Lucky Mwachi 